The Last Straw

"Just know you created it and I don't deny it. But I know your not healthy for me and its probably vice verse. But you always told me to live in the moment with you, so that's what I'm doing. But I know we should end this because I can't lose you as a friend. And I don't want to ever hurt you. Your more deeper then me on this and I can't catch you. I respect you too much as a person to b hurting ur feelings. I know they are real and so are mine. I wish I knew what to do with you but I don't. I knew I hurt your feelings on Tues and it hurt me. But I care enough bout u to say that i love u. Believe my words never my actions bc i can never make them add up."

These were the words you wrote to me. The words that cut through my heart like a knife. The words that needed to be said and I am grateful that you said them. Truths can hurt and this one definitely did. I love you! I might be in love with you! But the simple fact of the matter is your right, Your not healthy for me. You tell me to believe your words and not your actions but you tell me this after you say that you are manipulative. I basically cant trust anything you say or do. And that is a sad but true fact. So I will do what both of us are waiting for someone to do. I will not contact you. I will let sleeping dogs lie. If you contact me I will be cordial and respond b/c that is the type of person I am. But no, I will not come see you, I will not hang out with you. And what hurts me the most as I write this is the fact that we will probably not remain friends b/c I won't to be more then that and it is hard to be around someone who you love and just be friends.

"I'll be thinking about you! I'll be missing you! I'll want to be with you!"

But then I will come back to reality and eventually and against every bone in my body. I will forget you.