Not the Day

I am not having a great day today. I want to be able to go and confide in someone about my feelings. I want someone to hug me and tell me that it is going to be OK. I hate when I get into the funks/spells and can't get out of them. I have never felt the need to run to one person for a very long time but I want to call/text her and tell her how i am feeling. I want her to tell me it will be OK and that she will be there for whatever I need. I want her to invite me over so she can show me the TLC that I long for. Why this person? Why at this time? When will i get the nerve to tell her how I truly feel? I want to do it now but I know this is not the right time. I honestly don't feel she will be interested but I miss the conversations we used to have together. I miss confiding in one another. I don't think this is a phase anymore. I want to actively pursue this with her. No one else. I am waiting for my Calm After the Storm. (1:50pm)