HEADACHE

I am tired of this constant headache. You are causing this. I hate the fact that I am allowing you to have this much control over my emotions. Infatuation, obsession, craziness. I don't know what it is but it needs to be released. I hate to be out of control. I don't want to tell you b/c the control will decrease even more. I want to in control of this situation. I want you to know how I truly feel. I want you to want to feel the same way about me. I want for you to feel out of control. I want you to miss me, want me, need me. I know that sounds unhealthy, but I mean it in the healthiest way possible. I have a headache. I want you to know this. God I have a horrible headache. I need to know and want to know what this is. What are these feelings supposed to mean. When will they pass if they pass at all. Someone today told me that maybe I am just lonely. And I am lonely, but the fact of the matter is I want you to be the one who feels my loneliness. I really want to explore your world through your eyes. I want you to want me the way I want you. I have seven days left of this HEADACHE!!!!!!